Compromise.
Hey 2 months since my last post! Almost a new record eh?
I'm pretty tempted to declare this place dead, after all who reads this? I find my commitment to updating this is waning, given family, 2 cats, a dog and a virtual character.
But I'm not going to.
At least, not yet. After all, where do I get to post my occasional tidbits of information and scream out my nuggets of assorted idiocy?
Anyway.
For those who are actually reading this, life's been good for me. Not good like it used to be, but I'm willing to compromise.
Funny how far I've been willing to let my standards drop, just to allow myself to get through this stupid shit alive.
Ironically, I do it knowing that I'll do my time, and at the end I'll get the hell out of hell. It's not even like I hate this thing anymore. I just don't feel anything for it. I want to get out yes, but I don't count the days anymore. Things will pass as they will in time, and intentionally accelerating towards it is not going to work.
As frustrating as it is to watch people smashing their heads into the wall, I can't help, or keep trying to, or I find myself smashing my own head into a wall of my own making. I've tried before, and I guess I learnt something from that. And the eerie thing is now i know how my parents feel sometime ;p.
This was rather cryptic, but I think those who read more than my blog will understand what I mean.
Chi Hou @ Tuesday, April 11, 2006
