Crushed.

I'm so frustrated.

I feel like there's a ****ing mountain of steel barbs on my back driving into my skin. It hurts it hurts. I'm so angry.

Seriously, is there anything good about me?
I'm sedentary, fat, unfit, lazy, sloppy, careless, callous, irresponsible, unrepentant, cynical, rebellious, unmotivated, unlikeable and indolent.

What the hell man. Why the heck am i so lousy?

There's this veritable mountain of work waiting to be done, no time to do it, a presentation to be rushed out, people to deal with, a polarization of the class due to recent events, plenty of negative energy circulating EVERYWHERE, lousy teachers and a realization that i'm getting ****ing nowhere.

And to top it off, I dont know what in the blue heavens am I going to do in the future. Forget the confidence and the laughter. It's a sham. Really i don't know what's going on, what i want to do, when am i going to do anything, and who I am. Who am I???

I'm trying to do something about it. I really am! But it's not working??!! what's going on?? What's wrong???

ARGHHHH!!!





Serendipity.

Yes, I realize this is the 2nd entry titled serendipity, but there’s no other way to describe it.

Today, I met 15 or so people by chance. Really.

After the slave… I mean work session at Jik’s, me and Alec went to J8 for lunch and a bit of arcade action. The lunch was terrible but on the way out we met her and a bunch of her classmates. Heh and for all the 1I people, SK. =P. Then after spending a good hour at the arcade, I meet Kiat, who has trouble registering the fact that we’re in fact right in front of him. We slack around for a while, till Alec has to go for his JTS, so I hop down to PS, where I meet Weili and Teng Soon. We have dinner and slack around and somehow decide to go to HMV. So we rush off, and I meet my junior class there, and Alec and his class there. Not bad for 1 day right?

Heh. I knew I should have worn something nicer.